Why I hid a tear reading Jozen's mail

tayan salam...

how r u now? its 10mins b4 midnyt and hir i am making my journal, este, joke lng po tayan! making my letter for u. haha! indeed, cipyml is over na nga pla...

gee tayan! i never thought missin' you and our fellows is as sad as this...ur ryt, naging senti na rin me! my sis nga is laughing at me evrytym i rcivd a msg cmng frm u.. coz my eyes are becoming teary-eyed wyl reading! haha! corny no? pero i dont care if its corny, bsta im expressing how i feel... hehehe!

tayan, it may be hard to accept but i know, and u know, things will gonna change na between us. and i hate it! really, i do! huhuhuhu! cant we do somethin' abt it? life is sometimes cruel nga ano and unfair! how come ur der and i am hir? y cant we be in one place again and do the same things we do back in our cipyml days... see? im talkin' of past na tayan! cipyml days!!!!! aggghhhhh! i hate this tlga tayan, but what can i do? the only constant thing here on earth nga is CHANGE dba? but how come its hard to face it, much more accept it dba?! hay naku, hir i am again, whining!
seems dat i always whine dis past few days.. hehehhe! im so bad! tayan, really im being emotional tlga wen i think of u guys, kya nga likewise i always keep myself busy or i sleep all day na lng so dat my mind wouldnt think of u, guyz!!!! hehehe!

tayan, my eyes are getting wet again! & i dont wanna cry hir in the cafe! haha! :-) oa na tlga c jozen! ewan ko ba tayan! im not lyk dis naman before eh. i can control my feelings! well, it just shows how special u r to me, together wid d adma's family, hehe, bro haron, kya darex, kya bong and the others.. forget the 'u know'!!! hahaha!

nway, my mail is getting longer na tayan and i dont wanna stop writing kya magdusa ka! haha! rid my long letter to u, otherwise...... hehe! otherwise ull regret it! joke tayan! tayan, puro na lang me how i wish! i know nmn na ala rin mapapala ung mga how i wish ko! ;-)

tayan, im wonderin' wen will we see each other kya ano? wat will happen kya? or will destiny be kind and good enough to meet us once again? wat will be our destiny kya tayan? here i go again, askin' too many questions.... questions that is hard to
answer....

we will not make any vows or promises tayan to each other, bsta ill try my very best to hold on to you and to the other fellows that what we once had is very special to me and that one of the happiest and grandest thing that ever happened so far in my
life! ayan, im getting oa again tayan! hehe! :-)

basta tayan, i luv u so, so much! its hard to explain basta life is much nicer now that i met someone as superb as u! walang biro tayan! as in! u dont know how much it meant to me the things we did back there in manila, the good times and the bad times
weve had, and ive learned a lot of things from u tayan! :-) thats y im so thankful to ALLAH for giving me the chance to meet you, spend time with u and know u......

by the way tayan, perhaps the three of us (anne, u and i) are teletubbies na way back in r msu days pa coz lukd at our veils during our flyt to mla... we all wore the same color (black).. is it a coincidence? d rn nmn sinasadya ni anne to wear
the same veil... and luk at the first pic weve had during our orientation, u wore the pink veil na hiningi ko sau. and as i see the veils comin' from u and all the pics weve had, its really meant to be anO? we are destined to meet each other and
share a meaningful bond that will mean a lot to me and somehow, trigger a change in my life.... hehe! u know what i mean.... and im so thankful tlga tayan sau!!!!!

i luv u so much...

i will end this na... i cant bear it anymore... im gonna cry na if ill write more... hahaha!!!

luv u so much tayan! as in!!!

hugs and kisses...

gudluck and tc always ha!!!!

mwah...

tayan joz :-)